I don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing that I've been so consumed with everything else going on in my life that I've been distracted and not put much thought into possibly losing the one man I have loved so undoubtedly. Dean might be going on the road for work... it crushed my heart when he told me. We haven't even kissed for crying out loud though I think I may change that on Wednesday, if I decide to go see him at work. I could always ask him for a birthday kiss, couldn't hurt... if I can't be with him on my birthday... I want nothing more than to see my two favorite cousins and to be with him. A kiss will placate me. I've only been thinking about it for a year...