My first halfway decent poem in months... I'm still in shock that I'm writing again. I put so much effort into trying to do so that I think it put me at a road block. But when I'm not even thinking consciously about it, everything I feel, every thought flows onto paper. I am actually really proud of this poem because it just says everything.
What You See Is What I Don't Believe
I don't know what you're hoping
To achieve when you look at me
And see I'm not the same as you
Used to believe. To point out
Flaws I already knew, and
Somehow I'm just not good enough
For you. Your black and white is
My grey and you just don't
Hear it, you don't listen to what
I'm trying to say. I won't sit
And apologize for what this is
Or who I am, but for f-k sakes, you can't
Just sit there and tell me that you care
And that you give a damn. I know that
For you, I'll never be enough
And even still, after pain and agony,
You have to go and make things,
So much more f-king tough.
Well here's a f-k you for the
Bullshit stares of acceptance and
Love, cos to be completely
Honest, I don't f-king care.