I have found the sweetest, most protective guy in the whole world. I mean, seriously! He knows all about my insecurities, and how scared I get late at night when I'm alone in my room, and he was in the area, so he parked out the front of my dorm all night to make sure I was safe! Isn't that the most romantic thing ever?
We've decided to take it slow. We're both not ready for commitment, and we don't trust ourselves around each other, which is why he watched over me from outside, because if he'd come inside, we would've broken all the rules we've set for ourselves. But right now, we've just got so much going on... like I'm still getting over Jesse and the way he abused me and damaged me almost beyond repair, and he's dealing with all the travelling he has to do, that takes him away from me. We're both struggling with the distance, and it's so difficult.
But I trust him. Don't worry guys,I trust him 100%. I was a little wary of the girl who travels with him as well, but I know that I can trust Dean, and I know that nothing will ever, or has ever happened between them. He didn't even need to tell me, I can just sense it. But I also know she's not his type. He doesn't go for girls like her. Not that there's anything wrong with her, she's his friend, after all, but he likes softer girls. Like me.
Dean's loyal and he's honest, and so unbelievable. He's so patient with me, he knows that I have so many trust issues, but when we're around other girls, he's so focused on me. I feel so important, and like I'm the only one that he can see, you know?
Anyway, it's been really wonderful seeing him!
MWAH to all!
-C.