I am so glad I went out last night. And I'm almost 100% sure I didn't say or do anything completely retarded cos I was fucked out of my mind. Which was essentially the entire point, but I remember pretty much the entire night, I'm just a bit foggy on specific details. Joey, Jori and Chris walked me half way home really early this morning and I kind of just lolled around the apartment for a while. Actually ate, which was sort of strange for me, but not unexpected.
I'm going to crawl back into bed now cos I think I might actually be legitimately tired now and not just wasted... cos it sucks trying to sleep when that's the case.
-C.
Oh, and some guy I went to high school with (he doesn't even remember me) was hard core hitting on me last night. I asked Jori to help me avoid him, because I didn't know if I had enough common sense at the time to stop anything should anything have perspired. If Derek had been there, that would have been one thing, but not with a random stranger. Nothing. Not even making out because I'm not that person. That was not my goal last night. My goal was to have one night where I forgot that my life sucks horribly and not having to feel the stress and anxiety and just to be... calm. I'm a very quiet stoner though, I'll stay with people I know, but I more or less sit off in a corner and observe. But I fucking twitch like you wouldn't believe, I was worried someone was gonna think I have Tourette's (I have a great uncle who has it) or I'm just randomly having seizures but no one said anything. Gonna have to see how Joey is, he took quite the crotch shot from Chris last night lol. And Kev got the shit kicked out of him (mutual fighting) so I've got to make sure he's okay at some point.