19 February 2004 - Video message

Written by Nessa

Rebekah, Gwen and Bobby

Rebekah sighed as she set up the video camera outside. Bobby was sitting on the bench, rubbing his hip gently.

"It's beautiful today, isn't it? Mmm. How the sun just affects every breathing thing. I mean, you can really see it," Gwen said, looking around from her wheelchair.

"Ok, Mrs Dalloway," Rebekah replied.

Gwen chuckled. "Thank God your sense of humour has returned."

"Are you sure you want to do this, Gwen?" Bobby asked, looking at her with sad eyes.

"Absolutely. I'll be quick. Turn it on."

Rebekah obediently turned on the camera.

Gwen closed her eyes, and then smiled, opening them again.

"Hey guys, it's me. Well, by the time you see this, I won't be here anymore, and I know how much that sucks, not just for you, but for me too. So seeing as how I won't be around to thoroughly annoy you, I thought I would give you a list of things that I wish for you. Ok, I'll start with Faolan, Eavan and Bryant... well, there's the obvious. An education. Family. Friends. And a life that is full of the unexpected. Make mistakes. A lot, because there's no better way to learn and grow. Annoy your father. Annoy him so much, because I won't be there to do that. Love. I want you guys to love to the tips of your fingers, and when you find that love, wherever you find it, whoever you choose, don't run away from it. Don't be afraid, darlings, because it's when you least expect it, that life works out. Spending all of that time with you, was the best time I've ever had in my life. I love you all, with everything that I have. And I'll be watching, always."

Gwen felt her tears trickling down her face, and she glanced at Rebekah and Bobby to see them, crying as they watched.

"Mordred... I know that you and I got off to a rocky start, and we had more than our fair share of hiccups in this relationship... but if there was one thing I learned during our time, it's that I love you. I always have and I always will. Not even this will change that, because if there's one thing that I know for sure, it's that we can never be apart. I'll always be with you, my love, my darling, and even if I'm not there in person, it doesn't mean I won't be watching you. I'm sorry for everything, and if I could, I would spend forever trying to make it right. I wish that I could turn back the clock and make everything ok again, but I can't, so I have to be content with this. I want you to find love with someone once I'm gone. And I want you to be happy. And... I want you to know that I do love you, always and forever, beyond that even. Now... all of you... I love you all, so very much, and if you ever need me, just close your eyes, and I'll be there. Goodbye, my dearest loves, I'll miss you."

Rebekah switched the camera off and wiped her eyes.

"Gwen, I'm so sorry."

"Please, don't be sorry, be happy. Laugh or something, because I can't take it. Otherwise I'm going to be bitter and angry."

"She gets crabby on her deathbed," Bobby spoke up, his voice hoarse from crying.

"Very much."

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