Jessica and Adam
True to her word, Jessi had left that nioght. She and Adam had found his cousin, who was a teleporter, and they went off to NY. They didn't go to the mansion, though, instead they went to a rave in NYC. After the Rave was over, they walked through Central Park, just taking everything in. They did go to the mansion, at about 6 in the morning, as the sun was rising. They sat down against Dran, and fell asleep in each other's arms.
Nyx
Nyx looked down at them and sighed. She'd thought this might happen. She nudged Jessi gently with her boot. "Wake up, sweeties. You're gonna have Mouse all over ya with a hissy fit, ya know that? She'll be right pissed that you left when she told ya to stay put."
Jessica and Adam
"Nyx, I was seconds away from slitting my wrists again. Why doesn't anybody understand me?" Jessi said, getting angry again. Adam pulled her into his arms.
"I understand you baby, you know I do. I love you more than anything." he told her, prjecting his attraction to her at her, so that she would find herself attractive, instead of hating herself the way she did.
"Nyx, I thought at least you would understand, Understand my pain. But I guess not. Adam, let's go." she said, as she started to pull him up.
Nyx
Nyx grabbed Jessi by the shulder and spun her around to face her, eyes narrowed into slits. "You think you got all the dibs on the pain? You think you're the only one that's ever happened to? You wanna hear me, sweetie? I been damn near killed, over and over and over. Everyone I know *dies*. Everyone one I love *dies*. I can't ever have children. I been raped, mutilated, beaten, left for dead, starved, abused, neglected. I'd bet I've suffered everything that's happened to you and a damn lot more. I've had longer." She shook the girl, truly angry now. "You need a spanking, you spoiled little brat. Bout damn time everybody stopped tiptoeing around you. Yes, it happened. You think that everyone you know doesn't beat themselves up over it, wondering how they could've stopped it? I understand your pain, girl, but I won't let you pity yourself. And you'llve hurt Mouse. She trusted you. You broke that trust."
Jessica and Adam
Adam glared at Nyx with pur rage. He hadn't been angry at somebody in years, it just didn't happen, but now he was pissed.
"Listen, you holier-than-thou bitch, You think the thing with Owen was it? You think that was the first time she'd been beaten? Raped? IMagine being thirteen and not being able to tell a soul that your pregnant, because you're still ashamed of being raped. Imagine having a miscarriage and being angry at yourself for actually being relieved? Imagine going to a party only to have the father of the person who threw it lock you in a closet and leave you there for three days. Jess has a REASON not to trust people, because the people she loved didn't even have a fucking clue while all of it was going on." He picked up his now sobbing girlfriend, and headed for the school. She needed Rachel. Rachel had been there for her, when nobody else had. In fact, up until now, Rachel and Adam were the only people who knew that Owen was the 6th man to abuse her. There were reasons she hid herself away, tried to kill herself, and hated herself. In fact, Adam was the only man, outside of her family that she had trusted in almost 2 years.
Nyx, Nathan and Logan
Nyx threw her head back and screamed in frustration and rage. "AHHHHHHHHHHH!" She needed to destroy something, and she needed to kill something. Her claws snicked out, and then she leapt over the wall.
"NYX!" Logan came running out of the house. "What the *hell* is going on here?! And who the hell are you?!" He glared at the two teenagers and his claws slid out. "Start answering. We've had a lot of trouble lately, and I'm not big on trust."
Nathan came running. "Stop! She bleeds in her mind and her heart! Don't you see?!" He slapped Logan and Wolverine snarled at him. "You don't! Leave the child be. Nyx has gone to hunt. She hurts bad. The blood flows." He clawed at his face and Logan grabbed his hands. "Let it out! The darkness writhes and I cannot see!" He wailed. "I see BLOOD! A trust broken, a trust wrapped in guilt and hate. Child lost. Oh, the pain."
"Seraph, stop!" Nathan struggled futiley against Logan's superior strength. "What the hell has gotten into you?"
"Go! Go find your black cat. Leave the bleeding one to me. She burns like blood. He will heal her, if you let them be. Let them go," Nathan pleaded. "Let them go. Let him lick her wounds. Her mind isn't a safe refuge for her. A walker stalks through and he's still lingering. In her nightmares he comes again and again. BATHED in darkness."
Jessica and Adam
As Logan came by, Jessi went into a panic attack. The aggressiveness in the way he moved, talked, carried himself, he was so completely alpha male, and his motion and voice both reminded her of her friend Sarah's father. The crazy drunk who'd raped her, slapped her around, and locked her in a closet for three days. Her parents had thought she'd ran away, and they'd called the police, and YIRAAS, to look for her, but it was Sarah's brother who'd finally let her out when his father was passed out. Jess began to hyperventilate, and Adam glared at Logan, and carried her inside. They went into the study, and he laid her down on the couch.
"Shhhh, baby, it's just me. Nobody's going to hurt you anymore. I'll never let another man lay a finger on you for as long as I live, I promise."
"God, Adam,I'm such a mess. I looked at him, and I thought he was Sarah's father. I see Owen eveytime I close my eyes, and my old boyfriends are everywhere." she shuddered. "Why can't I stop seeing them? God, Adam, am I that much of a slut? Do I bring it on myself?" Adam rocked her back and forth.
"No, baby, you didn't do a thing to make those sick freaks want you, they're just sick in the head, all of them." He tried to calm her down, and she curled up in his arms. Adam was the only one who'd managed to touch her in ages. She hugged her mother once, and played wioth Zoe, but otherwise, she was afraid to let people touch her. She felt dirty all the time.
Nathan
Nthan managed to convince Logan to go after Nyx and headed after the hurting one. He stood at the door of the study, tears slowly falling down his face. "You tell the insane Seeing one, what's up. I don't speak the straight way, but you'll learn it. The Fury and the Cat gone hunting. You hurt his Pack, ya see. He don't mean nuthin' by it." He ducked his head in classic submissive behaviour. "I see her pain. But I see her future too. Gets better, I promise ye that, princess. Be like no one ever touched ya dirty. Be like ya were always clean. Always, always pure and white. This boy can help ya." He hummed slightly. "Can I come in?"
Jessica and Adam
"Please," Adam said. Jessi whimpered.
"Like nobody ever touched me?" she said, not believeing it. "But I'm bad. I killed my baby. It was my fault the baby died. Not good enough, never good enough. Too stupid to do anything right." she said. She looked up at Adam. "I don't deserve you. Why do you stay with me?" she asked, turthfully not knowing.
"Because I love you, sweetie. I love you more than I've ever loved anybody in the whole world. God brought us together for a reason, babe. Your my soulmate." She started to cry again.
"Can't be your soulmate, don't gotta soul."
Nathan
Nathan crept in, keeping his eyes down and slid up to the couch. "What I do is See. I see what's hidden, what's happening, the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth. I see past, present, future." He settled himself on the floor and sighed. "The future's a bitch to see. Gives me flipping headaches. And I'm telling you straight, girl, you gotta soul. You got one that's hurt so bad it don' know if it will ever heal. It will, you just let it. Let the people who love ya, love ya. Let them touch you." He put his hand on her ankle. "Let them in. Don't love the knife." He sighed again. "I can see it, glimmering in your thoughts. Never had to invent my demons. They live." He touched the scars on his cheek thoughtfully. "Come after me in the night. Hard living here. Vampire, you see. He has a soul, but I don't trust him none. Ah, I ramble. Listen to me."
Jessica and Adam
Jessi looked into his eyes. "I didn't kill my baby?" she asked. It had been almost two years since she found out she was pregnant, and then got very drunk, only to miscarry a few days later. "It was my fault. The kerosene killed my baby. It was half human." she shuddered at how painful the miscarriage had been. "I deserve the pain. Such a dirty bad girl."
"You are not." Adam said firmly. "Listen to me Jesica Grace Hanson. You are a beautiful young woman who's been hurt in ways nobody should ever experience. Who's gone through things that would kill many people. You're allowed to hurt. You should hurt. You've been hurt, but you WILL heal, and I will NEVER leave you."
"Promise?" she whispered, still not certain she could trust a sould. She'd trusted Jason, and he'd gotten her pregnant. She trusted Sarah's family, and look what had happened. She trusted the the homeless man in the park. She'd given him five dollars, and when she'd held out her hand, he snatched her, raped her and left her for dead. She'd trusted Brian, and he hit her. Her third relationship also turned abusive. And then. . Owen. He'd had her for a month. And when she thought she'd finally have peace, through death, Isaac 'saved' her. They didn't know, they didn't understand. She was past saving.
Nathan
"Trust me, for I see truth," Nathan said. "Not many people as loving as him round." Ntahan got up and then went to a cupboard for one of the bottles of headaches tablets he had hidden all over the mansion. "He'll stay. Trust me on this." He shook out five and started to chew, barely gagging anymore at the bitter taste. "We all have our gifts girl. Don't be afraid to use yours. Mine makes me a target for everything evil and otherwordly. I've been dodging demons since I was thirteen and I started to See. But still I see. If I really wanted to, I could die. But that is saying they won. Don't let the demons win." He swallowed. "Does the fact that evil chases me, desires me, make me evil? If no, then why should you be different?"
Jessica and Adam
"I---I'm not bad?" she asked. "It's not my fault?"
"Of course not, baby. There are some horrible, human monsters out there. And for some reason, they keep finding you. But I will protect you forever." Jessi finally began to relax, and let him hold her completely. She looked at Nathan.
'I believe you." she said slowly. "I think I can trust you."
Nathan
"I'm too insane to lie, Soul." He smiled slightly. He now had a name for her. "Ask anyone here. My Seeing broke me, years ago. You can trust him too, that one. Punk." He thought for a moment, then shook out an other tablet and just let it lie under his tongue. "You hide under your appearance. Chameleon, you are."
Jessica and Adam
Adam smileed. "Not my fault people want to judge a book by its cover. But yes, I make myself look like something I'm not." he smiled. "Babe, do you want to go to bed? Get some sleep?" Jess nodded, and snuggled up in Adam's lap.
"Nathan, wasn't it? I'm going to take her to bed, she needs some rest." They said their goodbyes, and Jess and Adam went out to the guest rooms, but not before Jess shared a heated glare at Mouse.