15 October 2003 - Bruises Fade, But Pain Remains

Nessa

Gwen and Rebekah

Gwen leant on her walking stick, half grateful for it, seeing as she was puffed out of breath and she'd only walked from her room, down the hall. She hadn't even made it outside yet.

"Dang, I haven't been walking for what, a week? And I'm pathetic."

Gwen sighed and continued on, finally making it outside, twenty minutes later. She was about to find a seat to sit on when she heard singing, and felt a wave of sorrowful emotion wash over her.

"Strumming dub plates with our fingers
Eliminate sounds with our song
Killing a sound boy with this sound
Killing a sound boy with this sound
Taking sound boys' lives with this dub
Killing him softly with this sound

Strumming my pain with his fingers
Singing my life with his words
Killing me softly with his song
Killing me softly with his song
Telling my whole life with his words
Killing me softly with his song

I heard he sang a good song
I heard he had a style
And so I came to see him and listen for a while
And there he was this young boy
Stranger to my eyes

Strumming my pain with his fingers
Singing my life with his words
Killing me softly with his song
Killing me softly with his song
Telling my whole life with his words
Killing me softly with his song

I felt all flushed with fever
Embarrassed by the crowd
I felt he found my letters and read each one out loud
I prayed that he would finish

But he just kept right on strumming my pain
Singing my life with his words
Killing me softly with his song
Killing me softly with his song
Telling my whole life with his words
Killing me softly with his song

Killing me softly with his song
Killing me softly with his song
Telling my whole life with his words
Killing me softly with his song
Strumming my pain with his finger, yeah he was..."

Tears twinkled in Rebekah's eyes as she finished singing, and put her guitar down. Gwen slowly made her way over.

"That was really special," Gwen said softly.

Rebekah looked up, startled. "Je n'ai pas su que n'importe qui était ici." (I did not know anyone was here.) She paused and started to say it in English.

Gwen smiled. "Est-ce que Je Peux?" she asked, gesturing to the bench. (May I?)

Rebekah nodded and moved over slightly. "Vous parlez français?" (You speak French?)

"Seulement un peu." (Only a small amount.) Gwen smiled at her again. "J'ai un château à Paris." (I have a castle in Paris.)

"Oui, mon grand-mère avait l'habitude de travailler là. Vous êtes Gwen Raiden, oui?" Rebekah replied, smiling back. (Yes, my grandmother used to work there. You are Gwen Raiden, yes?)

"Oui. Le puits I était. Maintenant Je Suis Gwen Lwellyn. J'ai marié Mordred." (Yes. Well I was. Now I'm Gwen Lwellyn. I married Mordred.)

"Ah, comment doux," Rebekah replied. (Ah, how sweet.) "Vous marchez encore, je voyez." (You are walking again, I see.)

"Oui, et je suis... qui est bon, il est juste, je ne sais pas... les cauchemars suis immobile... Je suis désolé, je ne vous connais pas même, je ne devrais pas vider ceci sur vous," Gwen said sheepishly. (Yes, and I'm... that's good, it's just, I don't know... the nightmares are still... I'm sorry, I don't even know you, I shouldn't be dumping this on you.)

"Bien, devons-nous fixer cela? Mon nom est Rebekah LaVauney, très gentil de vous rencontrer," Rebekah said, smiling. (Well, shall we fix that? My name is Rebekah LaVauney, very nice to meet you.)

"Et vous." (And you.) Gwen stood shakily. "Je devrais aller contrôle sur Mordred. Je vous parlerai plus tard?" (I should go check on Mordred. I'll talk to you later?)

"Oui. Et..." (Yes. And...) Rebekah manipulated Gwen's emotions to go from sad to happy. "Ayez une bonne journée." (Have a good day.)

"Merci," Gwen said sincerly, turning around and slowly walking back inside.

Rebekah sighed and picked her guitar up, and started to sing another song, projecting out slightly happier emotions all around the mansion.

"I woke up this morning with a smile on my face
And nobody's gonna bring me down today
Been feeling like nothing's been going my way lately
But I decided right here, right now
That my outlook's gonna change
That's why I'm gonna

Say goodbye to all the tears I've cried
Every time somebody hurt my pride
Feeling like they won't let me live my life and
Take the time to look at what is mine

I see, every blessing, so clearly
And I thank God, for what, I got from above

I believe they can take anything from me, but they
Can't succeed in taking my inner peace from me
They can say all they wanna say about me, but I
I'm gonna carry on
I'ma keep on
Singing my song, yeah yeah

I never wanna dwell on the pain again, ooh no no
There's no use in reliving how I hurt back then, oh, oh no
Remembering too well the hell I felt
When I was running out of faith, oh
Every step I'm about to take
Well it's towards a better day
'Cause I'm about to

Say farewell to every single lie
And all the fears I've held too long inside
Every time I felt I couldn't try
All the negativity and strife

Cause too long, I've been, struggling, couldn't go on
But now, I've found, I'm feeling strong and I'm moving on

I believe they can take anything from me, but they
Can't succeed in taking my inner peace from me
Now they can say all they wanna say about me, but I
I'm gonna carry on
I'ma keep on
Singing my song

Every time I tried to be
What they wanted from me
It never came naturally
So I ended up in misery
Was unable to see
All the good around me
Wasting so much energy
On what they thought of me
Than simply just remembering to breathe, ohh ooh
Ohh, I've learned
I'm humanly unable to please
Everyone at the same time
So now I find, my peace of mind
Living one day at a time

In the end I answer to one God
Comes down to one love
Till I get to heaven above
I have made the decision
Never to give in
Till the day I die no matter what
I'm gonna carry on
I'ma keep on, mmm
Singing my song...

I believe they can take anything from me
But they can't succeed in taking my inner peace from me

They can do what they wanna
Say what they wanna say
But I'm gonna
Keep on

I believe that they can take from me
But they can't take my inner peace
Ohh, yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

Say what they wanna say
I am gonna sing my song
Oh, oh, oh, yeah, yeah..."

Rebekah put her guitar down and stood up, heading into her room to do some homework.

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OOC: Songs were:

"Killing Me Softly" - The Fugees
"Keep On Singing My Song" - Christina Aguilera

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