The day before the Hanson concert, my friend Aimz SMS's me: A friend of her's has an extra ticket - do I want it?

Suffice to say I said yes. I also was able to make arrangements with my cousin Mel to stay at her place overnight. Thank God she wasn't away for the weekend or something, lol.

The concert was great :D

And you know what? It was better this way after all. If I had gotten the tickets earlier, I wouldn't have taken the day off work. However, since I didn't, and I really wanted to meet Aimz (who was only coming over from the otherside of the country) I did. So there you go.

Again, ages since I last updated. This is the usual way with any diary/journal I try to keep, lol.

So to my immense surprise Hanson are not only coming to Australia for a couple of days this month, but they're also actually doing a couple of concerts. You can imagine my stunned delight, as I have always wanted to see them perform live.

Of course, now you want to know why I'm writing about my favourite band in my spiritual diary. Well, this is why: to my surprise I actually found myself rather ambivolous as to whether I actually wanted to go to their Sydney concert or not. I mean, lets face it, by I would not only get to see them perform live, I would also get to meet my friend Aimz who's gonna be coming all the way from Perth to see them. So why wouldn't I want to go? Well, for one thing, I hate Sydney, and especially don't want to be there when it's night and otherwise dark out, let alone travelling to and from on the train. And I don't want to deal with silly girls screaming in my ear for the whole two hours either.

So I did the only thing I could do. I left the whole matter in God's hands. I was like: God, you know how much I want to see them perform live (and meet Aimz), but you also know how much I dislike the idea of being in Sydney at night and having people screaming in my ear. So I'm going to try and get tickets, because I'll regret it either way if I don't try, and I'm leaving it solely in your hands as to whether I actually get them or not. And I can rest assured that if I don't get any to this concert, that you have a better opportunity for me to see them perform live in mind.

Now as it turned out I wasn't able to purchase them online for the presale, so the Saturday following the public sale start I arranged to go to Sydney to get the tickets (but I also made plans to go to Kings Comic, me being the comic book fan that I am). I arrive at the station, all ready to catch the train and would you believe it, there's trackwork on that weekend. And I was NOT going to go on a bus trip for two hours and five minutes.

I rest assured that God has something better in mind for me.

Yeah, it's been awhile since I last updated. Which is typical for me. I'm always starting diaries/journals and then write in them sparingly, lol.

God has helped me a great deal, these last few weeks in particular. He showed me a faster way for updating my site. I was able to get EVERYTHING done instead of doing little bits over many weeks, which is a huge load off my mind.

And now I get to go on with the next project, lol.

Today Holywood (as my Church drama group is called) did it's first performance for this year. And I have to say, while we did a couple of things last year, this time it felt different. Like, last year was all a practice and from this point onwards it's the real thing. I felt really good about it. And yeah, there were last minute nerves. Although, I never get last minute nerves until THE last minute these days, lol. Like two minutes before I'd due to go onstage, that's when I'm nervous. Meanwhilst everyone else is nervous waaaaaay before I am, lol.

I think maybe I'll start a second journal for Holywood. In fact, I don't just think it, I believe I will, lol.

One thing that seriously bothers me: Whenever our pastor asks for people to come up and testify, or even just praying in a group... I never know what to say. It's like, my mind just goes blank and I can't think of anything. I HATE that. And to add insult to injury, I have no problems whatsoever in thinking of things to say when we do improvisations in drama. *melodramatic sigh*.

Well, as our pastor was saying in Church today: rebuke the wind, and calm the waves. Or maybe "don't tell God about your problem, tell your problem about God".

You have no idea how much it ticks me off (and yet amuses me in an ironic kind of way) that I think of a problem to pray about NOW and not when we were doing the group praying about these things earlier this evening when I was suffering from it!

A few things. A few weeks ago I heard something that sounded really cool: "Sex is God's Wedding present."

I just think that's really cool. Oh, I said that already huh? Hehe.

The other day I bought my boyfriend his b'day present. 'Course, me, being me, absolutely paranoid that someone else is gonna get him the same thing. Prayed about it, that no one else would get him it. And you know what was the thing that gave me total peace that no one else would? God gave me the answer to another question I had asked earlier that day :D

Lastly, lately our Pastor has been talking about fear, and has come to the conclusion that a lot of things (nervousess, selfishness, even embarrassment) stem from fear. And you know what? I've known for a while that most of my fears revolve around people, but when she started broadened the scope, I realised that hey, my sheer inability to be serious? Stems from fear. I have a seriously hard time being serious. Hehe. It's probably an additional factor to my tentativeness about putting my spiritual journal on the internet. I think that being serious makes me feel vulnerable. And who likes feeling vulnerable?

The movie at Church last night about the Rapture has really gotten me to thinking about how deep my belief in God goes.

At first I thought I might not believe as much as I thought I did, but the more I thought about it, and talked to God about it, I realised that wasn't the case. Enough has happened in my life that I had attributed to Him that I can't see why I could doubt it at all:

• He saved me when I was having an all so unpleasent drowning experience.
• This one sounds really absurb, but I know He organised my becoming a Hanson fan. So much has happened to me because of my fandom, including my friendship with my friend Joy, whom I met during a time where I desperately needed a friend.
• There was an area in my life (which I will not specify at this time) where I had a... determination (not opinion) about. But during a Bible class in High School, He guided me to a passage in one of the letters to the seven churches that kinda pushed me in the direction that hey, I might be going down the wrong path here. In the last couple of years, the last few months especially, I have grown certain, confident and in fact doubtless that this is the case.
• Many, many, many answered prayers.

Yes I have a vivid imagination.

Just been praying in bed before I go to sleep as per usual. Have been asking for God's guidence on opening a section of my website on God/Christianity/Biblical related matters. Then it hit me in such a way the idea filled me with such a sense of awe and inabality to stop saying "wow" that it can only be God inspired. A spiritual diary. So overwhelmed with awe for this I had to get up and write this first entry.

First of many.

I feel like I should write more but nothing is coming to me. Maybe tomorrow.